We WeNt On A DaTe....

back to work today... yeah! took leave yesterday to pak toh with baby heh.. so shiok no need to work.. feels like i am back being a student again... its been a long time since i went to town and on a weekday morning.. wish i was still studying and going out as and when i like with no work burden... sigh but baby said that if we are not working it will be damn sian oso.. and its cos we are working thats why we treasure the rare occasions like these where we can go out on dates heh..

We watched The Host at the bew cathay and i even got $2 for being a SMU student hehe.. ya ex student but they never bao tou me so i dun care heh.. so yeah we watch $6 movie yesterday heh.. didn't really do much.. but i was very happy jus spending time with my baby.. seldom do we get such chances and he is going end his course soon and down to the hangar to start real work soon.. so he is gonna be very busy and no time for me as he even gotta work on weekends... gonna be have to entertain myself...

Oli is injured cos Ruffles bit him.. he is wearing some plastic funnel looking thing on his neck to stop him from scratching himself.. so poor thing he kept knocking into things.. and into me as well... he dun even dare to climb the stairs... anyway didn't get a good night sleep cos ruffles kept waking me up with his scratching licking and whining... sleepy now..

Happy 10th Month baby!!

My NePhEwS....

Yes.. i know they are dogs..

Yun with Oli

Yun With Ruffles..

Ruffles has big paws... big paws means??... hehe

Awwwww.....

food does wonders...

sooooooo cute....

WhY?

We have a very weird relationship...
we seem close but yet not..
Feels like there is something between us
or something missing...
Thought about this for years
but no conclusion..

Things seems different lately
not for the better though..
but the same old feeling is still there..

Sometimes i feel guilty for certain feelings
but i can't help it
There is only so much i can take

its not cos of anyone else..
it just me...

InTrOdUcInG.....

My sisters dogs...

Ruffles!! and Oli in e backgroud heh..

blown up pic... heh damn cute rite heh..

AsK FoR MoRE???

Sometimes i wonder why do people have so high expectations? The more you expect, the greater your disappointment when things dun go ur way... if you do get ur way, ur expectations would be even higher e next time... so wats e point in expecting so much?

I am not saying we should jus take wat comes along and not work hard, rather we should be happy with wat we have as long as we feel we had tried our best and no regrets with the outcome.. maybe that way Singapore would be a less stressful place and we would get enjoy life as we live it...

Have we ever thought that we expect so much from others, others might be expecting e same from us? Think we gotta think about ourselves first before setting a standard for others...

Actually i am in quite a good place already...
a great family,
a doting bf,
many good friends,
not a bad job,
enough money to spend,
a car to drive (though not mine heh)

so why am i still always complaining?.. guess its our nature as well.. always not satisfied

AlOnE...

quite sian today.. went to butter factory to celebrate cas's birthday last nite but didn't get to see much of her anyway.. left quite early as i gotta work today.. and dear going kukup today with his colleagues.. leave me alone here.. gonna miss u baby...

actually had a full day planned as dear is not ard so i must occupy all my time cos no one accompany me heh but... sigh some problems and end up now only me sy, her bf, felicia and her bf.. and i am alone, boyfriendless and a huge lightbulb la.. sigh.. but its ok.. alone den alone lo heh.. i can take care of myself.. jus dat damn sian.. hate to have pple last min pang seh one..

Yesterday was a damn suay day la.. we went to the triumph warehouse sale at Jalan peminpin.. we turned into the small road and stopped at the side of the road for a while deciding where to psrk as there were so many pple there for e sale. There was this huge truck which was going to turn out... he turned too close to sy's car and it hit her rear, cracking her brake lights and scraping her paint job.. tink the driver did not realise and drove off. We were damn stunned la.. for no reason this huge lorry knocked into us and drove off.. and he knocked the side i was sitting at.. if he had knocked inner. might have gotten me.. and i haven buy insurance yet!! Think i am a very suay person so maybe i hai her car to be knocked.. cos i sitting inside ma..

oh wells.. we still went for the sale where i bought 7 bras and a few underwear.. damn cheap la jus dats it was so hot and crowded...

went to make a police report after dat at clementi.. e only good thing was we were slacking during office hrs.. e police took a damn long time to write e report.. tink he likes sy so he was trying to keep her there longer heh.. no lunch and back to the office at 4... exciting day but in a bad way heh..

Still tink maybe its cos if my bad luck and caused her accident..

BuSy LiKe A BeE....

as you can guess from my title i am too tied up with things to write bout anything.. stole some time jus before 6 to write a few lines heh..

Lots of work to do
Permed my hair finally!! heh
wanna go on another holiday!!

baby so poor thing got test coming and alot to study.. too bad i can't help u.. u jus gotta study hard ya heh.. i support u mentally heh...

JuSt My LuCk...

Everyone says life is unfair and i agree with that.. but how does life chooses who gets lucky and who doesn't? why am i always e unlucky one? i dun deny that i do get lucky once in a while but geenerally i am a very very suay person.

Whatever i wan to achieve i can never depend on luck. To get wat i wan i can only depend on myself and my hard work.. why can't good things jus fall from the sky for me like for other pple? Maybe if that was so i might not treasure wat i have now. I guess that's wat mould me into wat i am today... many pple say i am a workaholic. but if i dun work hard i can never achieve wat i wan... i cannot jus sit and wait for opportunities to come knocking at my door, cos they never do... i gotta go out and search and work for my opportunity. Sometimes i really wiah life was a little easier on me.

To me, its like playing mahjiong. Most of the time i lose. That's my life.. can never depend on luck. In a round of mahjiong, i usually only win 1 or 2 times. My tiles are always ugly when i open them. I love to play big at mj cos it makes me feel accomplish if i really hu... i always have to build my tiles up cos they never pretty when i open them. almost everyone round i make my tiles up to be so nice and jus waiting for the last winning tile but it seldom comes to me... someone else would definitely complete b4 me... Once in a while i would win with a small, 1 or 2 tai.. but overall i lose most of the time.

Its like my life.. i do get lucky sometimes.. but i lose overall... i always get bullied or i am always unlucky... why can't lady luck shine more on me? Do i really not deserve it? I am generally a very normal and good person but why can't good pple get good returns? Why am i always being overshadowed by others? Am i really such a pushover? I dun wan to be down my whole life..

Sometimes i really tink life and luck has forgotten about me.. jus like how most pple tend to not take notice of me.. am i really so insignificant? why can't i be lucky too? its damn tiring to keep trying and trying and yet i am not appreciated or nothing comes in return for me.. How come some people get what they wan so easily? they dun have to work hard for it and it jus comes landing on their lap nicely for them..

However if i have to give up something in return for something good to happen, i rather work for it. At least i know i have a great family and also a bf who loves me and is very good to me.. Probably working hard to achieve something would make me feel more accomplished and i would treasure it more...

I lead a dog's life... fated to work hard my whole life... all i wish is to be happy and get my fair share in life....

=(

I tink the world works in a very amazing way.. most people believe that things happen for a reason and i too believe in that.. I met you for a reason..

i also believe in karma.. never do things to others that u would not want others to do to u... i believe i once did something to someone and now its my turn to experience it.. that's karma..

Yesterday u said something to me.. it made me very upset and disappointed.. only say such words when u mean it or do u actually mean it?

My WeEkEnD ReNdEzVoUs To DeSaRu....

Its mon back to work.... jus took a short weekend getaway to Desaru with dear... nothing much there... jus tanning, swimming, eating and relaxing... we took e 10am ferry and reached there b4 1130am..

At the ferry terminal... last time can drive over?? i dunno to where cos e road leads out into e sea loh..

Could not check in when we reached cos e others haven checked out yet... nothing to do we took a stroll along e beach and tried to tan ourselves..

at the beach heh...

Trying to tan ourselves at the beach but e weather wasn't very good.. disappointing.. went for lunch after lying there for less than an hour... failed to get a good tan.



We finally got to check in at 2pm.. e room was huge! haha there was a big bed with lots of walking space ariund the room... even a walk in closet, a balcony to sit outside and enjoy the scenery (and of cos for dear to smoke!).. e bathroom was very big as well.. a washing area, standing shower as well as a bath tub haha.. they had hair dryer too!!!




Our 2nd attempt to bake ourselves.. by e swimming pool heh... but not very successful again due to e weather again!!... me and dear entertaining ourselves while tanning heh... ya and dear took picture of my butt!!!

bascially we spent the 2 days relaxing and resting heh damn shiok la....
some pictures of e resort...



The swimming pool has no ending.. looks like e beach heh..







If you enjoy doing nothing and jus lazing ard can consider Desaru as a quick weekend getaway...

Hope i will have more trips with dear before he becomes too busy for me next year..