DiSiLlUsIoNeD...

Some things are really not wat pple see on the surface.. it might seem all pretty and colorful on the outside but inside is actually jus an empty shell.. things are deceiving and are usually not wat u see.. When things have changed.. I see things i do not want to see, i find out things i do not want to kn ow.. its hard to reverse things back to the way they were when i was still ignorant and naive (although i tink i atill am).. people come and go and i guess that is part and parcel of life..

Although life is unfair to most pple.. i believe nobody will be a winner forever.. i am still waiting for my chance..

My WoRlD Is BeTtEr...

Today, i found out how fake people can be.. ok maybe not today but it didn't feel good to find out that certain pple might appear to be getting along fine with you and yet behind u they are doing otherwise..

Baby always tell me my thinking of people are not right - i tink everyone is good and most of them do something wrong or bad becos of some reasons and difficulties.. nobodyis really evil and mean.. they jus act in a certain way in that moment of folly...

Guess i am really wrong.. Why do i always try to be nice to everyone? Doreen says nobody will actually bother if you are nice to them..

The world is a very sad place.. i think i rather in my own world..