Everyone says life is unfair and i agree with that.. but how does life chooses who gets lucky and who doesn't? why am i always e unlucky one? i dun deny that i do get lucky once in a while but geenerally i am a very very suay person.
Whatever i wan to achieve i can never depend on luck. To get wat i wan i can only depend on myself and my hard work.. why can't good things jus fall from the sky for me like for other pple? Maybe if that was so i might not treasure wat i have now. I guess that's wat mould me into wat i am today... many pple say i am a workaholic. but if i dun work hard i can never achieve wat i wan... i cannot jus sit and wait for opportunities to come knocking at my door, cos they never do... i gotta go out and search and work for my opportunity. Sometimes i really wiah life was a little easier on me.
To me, its like playing mahjiong. Most of the time i lose. That's my life.. can never depend on luck. In a round of mahjiong, i usually only win 1 or 2 times. My tiles are always ugly when i open them. I love to play big at mj cos it makes me feel accomplish if i really hu... i always have to build my tiles up cos they never pretty when i open them. almost everyone round i make my tiles up to be so nice and jus waiting for the last winning tile but it seldom comes to me... someone else would definitely complete b4 me... Once in a while i would win with a small, 1 or 2 tai.. but overall i lose most of the time.
Its like my life.. i do get lucky sometimes.. but i lose overall... i always get bullied or i am always unlucky... why can't lady luck shine more on me? Do i really not deserve it? I am generally a very normal and good person but why can't good pple get good returns? Why am i always being overshadowed by others? Am i really such a pushover? I dun wan to be down my whole life..
Sometimes i really tink life and luck has forgotten about me.. jus like how most pple tend to not take notice of me.. am i really so insignificant? why can't i be lucky too? its damn tiring to keep trying and trying and yet i am not appreciated or nothing comes in return for me.. How come some people get what they wan so easily? they dun have to work hard for it and it jus comes landing on their lap nicely for them..
However if i have to give up something in return for something good to happen, i rather work for it. At least i know i have a great family and also a bf who loves me and is very good to me.. Probably working hard to achieve something would make me feel more accomplished and i would treasure it more...
I lead a dog's life... fated to work hard my whole life... all i wish is to be happy and get my fair share in life....
