FeEl LiKe DyInG...

Its a sat nite at about 9pm... i am sitting in my living room alone.. no one is at home... dun feel like going out.. dun feel well..
cannot talk properly cos my tongue is swollen from a huge ulcer,
feel piercing pain in my tummy ocassionally,
my head is killing me with persistent aching
and now my nose is starting to drip...
waiting for my baby to da bao dinner for me later.. but he will only be here bout 11+.. not hungry anyway... 2 more hours.. where is my baby?

think gonna rub salt into my wound.. hope will exterminate the ulcer... OUCH!!!!

We WeNt On A DaTe....

back to work today... yeah! took leave yesterday to pak toh with baby heh.. so shiok no need to work.. feels like i am back being a student again... its been a long time since i went to town and on a weekday morning.. wish i was still studying and going out as and when i like with no work burden... sigh but baby said that if we are not working it will be damn sian oso.. and its cos we are working thats why we treasure the rare occasions like these where we can go out on dates heh..

We watched The Host at the bew cathay and i even got $2 for being a SMU student hehe.. ya ex student but they never bao tou me so i dun care heh.. so yeah we watch $6 movie yesterday heh.. didn't really do much.. but i was very happy jus spending time with my baby.. seldom do we get such chances and he is going end his course soon and down to the hangar to start real work soon.. so he is gonna be very busy and no time for me as he even gotta work on weekends... gonna be have to entertain myself...

Oli is injured cos Ruffles bit him.. he is wearing some plastic funnel looking thing on his neck to stop him from scratching himself.. so poor thing he kept knocking into things.. and into me as well... he dun even dare to climb the stairs... anyway didn't get a good night sleep cos ruffles kept waking me up with his scratching licking and whining... sleepy now..

Happy 10th Month baby!!

My NePhEwS....

Yes.. i know they are dogs..

Yun with Oli

Yun With Ruffles..

Ruffles has big paws... big paws means??... hehe

Awwwww.....

food does wonders...

sooooooo cute....

WhY?

We have a very weird relationship...
we seem close but yet not..
Feels like there is something between us
or something missing...
Thought about this for years
but no conclusion..

Things seems different lately
not for the better though..
but the same old feeling is still there..

Sometimes i feel guilty for certain feelings
but i can't help it
There is only so much i can take

its not cos of anyone else..
it just me...

InTrOdUcInG.....

My sisters dogs...

Ruffles!! and Oli in e backgroud heh..

blown up pic... heh damn cute rite heh..

AsK FoR MoRE???

Sometimes i wonder why do people have so high expectations? The more you expect, the greater your disappointment when things dun go ur way... if you do get ur way, ur expectations would be even higher e next time... so wats e point in expecting so much?

I am not saying we should jus take wat comes along and not work hard, rather we should be happy with wat we have as long as we feel we had tried our best and no regrets with the outcome.. maybe that way Singapore would be a less stressful place and we would get enjoy life as we live it...

Have we ever thought that we expect so much from others, others might be expecting e same from us? Think we gotta think about ourselves first before setting a standard for others...

Actually i am in quite a good place already...
a great family,
a doting bf,
many good friends,
not a bad job,
enough money to spend,
a car to drive (though not mine heh)

so why am i still always complaining?.. guess its our nature as well.. always not satisfied

AlOnE...

quite sian today.. went to butter factory to celebrate cas's birthday last nite but didn't get to see much of her anyway.. left quite early as i gotta work today.. and dear going kukup today with his colleagues.. leave me alone here.. gonna miss u baby...

actually had a full day planned as dear is not ard so i must occupy all my time cos no one accompany me heh but... sigh some problems and end up now only me sy, her bf, felicia and her bf.. and i am alone, boyfriendless and a huge lightbulb la.. sigh.. but its ok.. alone den alone lo heh.. i can take care of myself.. jus dat damn sian.. hate to have pple last min pang seh one..

Yesterday was a damn suay day la.. we went to the triumph warehouse sale at Jalan peminpin.. we turned into the small road and stopped at the side of the road for a while deciding where to psrk as there were so many pple there for e sale. There was this huge truck which was going to turn out... he turned too close to sy's car and it hit her rear, cracking her brake lights and scraping her paint job.. tink the driver did not realise and drove off. We were damn stunned la.. for no reason this huge lorry knocked into us and drove off.. and he knocked the side i was sitting at.. if he had knocked inner. might have gotten me.. and i haven buy insurance yet!! Think i am a very suay person so maybe i hai her car to be knocked.. cos i sitting inside ma..

oh wells.. we still went for the sale where i bought 7 bras and a few underwear.. damn cheap la jus dats it was so hot and crowded...

went to make a police report after dat at clementi.. e only good thing was we were slacking during office hrs.. e police took a damn long time to write e report.. tink he likes sy so he was trying to keep her there longer heh.. no lunch and back to the office at 4... exciting day but in a bad way heh..

Still tink maybe its cos if my bad luck and caused her accident..